Why am I so bored, angry and miserable?

[CeilingFlower]

Is it perimenopause, at 46? Burnout? Depression? Having life experience, so little novelty?

Absolutely everything is fine, but I am so restless and not happy with anything, nothing gives me joy. I have time, resources and health to do whatever I want this weekend but whatever I do feels like going through the motions, passing time rather than experiencing life to the full. I might as well work or sleep. Ironically, this detached misery serves me well at work, as I can’t get worked up about anything and make very rational decisions and come across as calm and logical.

And I despise myself for feeling like this when I have everything to be happy. I am too embarrassed to bring this up IRL with anyone (who anyway?) when so many people struggle with real challenges.

I have this theory that when we aren’t using our stress hormones in a genuine flight or fight context they kind of sour into dissatisfaction.

@Calliopespa this is actually a very insightful take, because few years back we had a chain of bad events in the family and I remember thinking how nice it was before to be bored. Acute appreciation of having a good life only comes when it’s taken away. I do remind myself of that experience to get through this apathy.

I'm 47, been on HRT for nearly 3 years. Peri meno precisely.

It was the Testosterone that finally gave me back my zest for life.

@Ilovelowry can you tell me more? Do they blood test you for it?

Sadly not. Meno is treated on symptoms after age 45.

If you fancy it, try some HRT. Work out which one you want and see GP and ask for a trial.

Mine suggested it to me rather than the other way around.

I think I’d sit with it for a bit before trying to ‘solve’ it. Maybe it’s trying to alert you to something?

Did you get hairy? ( genuine question; I always wonder how they know how much to give as things like pcos are high teatetobe in women).

I hear you OP.
I have nothing of significance that is weighing me down. I have a healthy and happy family that I love and love me, a secure job, I’ve lost weight and am feeling better about my body and am hoping to get fitter , I have good friends, I don’t have much money in the bank but everything I need in life is getting paid for yet….

I feel such heavy sadness lately. I can’t explain it. I don’t see much joy in anything and I’m struggling to find anything that’s pulling me out of myself.

Too much screen time

@coxesorangepippin you are not wrong. DD checked my usage - 3 hours per day, split between Mumsnet and ChatGPT. How sad.

I grow hair again where it had stopped growing in my late 30s. But it doesn't bother me. But oddly I don't get any more hair where I apply it.