grief is hard

[Amy8]

Today is the anniversary of my husband's death.

I lost my husband to cancer 9 years ago to cancer and it was tough. I have a new life - i lost all my old friends who were with me back then, who helped me, a lot couldn't cope with my starting a new life - i can only assume, they never said.

I feel guilty that i should be mourning my late husband but selfishly i mourn the life i lost more.

Nothing to feel guilty or angry about. Life is hard and cruel sometimes. No matter how long it's been it doesn't go away you just learn to deal with it as you are. I hope you find happiness and I'm sorry not only for the loss of your dh but for the loss of the future you should of had.

So so sorry for your loss. I lost DF 4 years ago last week. It's still so hard.

Send you strength today. Please take it easy.

It's so difficult to deal with. Sorry to you.

Have you had good support from professional services? I reached out as I'm struggling with a couple of recent deaths.

@Amy8 you can share lovely memories of him here if that helps?