I have always found myself doing it. I cannot cope with nice attention. Examples would be if it's a birthday of mine coming up and people offer to do nice things with me, I just cannot bring myself to say yes. I would rather sit in not doing anything than have a fuss made.
It was Mother's Day recently and my partner hadn't had time to get me a card. He said he'd go in the evening but rather than letting him I bought my own card before he had a chance because the thought of him going to get me something made me feel so weird.
I was like it with my engagement. I sensed it was coming and on the run up I did everything like I say I felt poorly, try to ignore every opening available for the proposal as I couldn't cope with the nice thing happening.
It's a big birthday coming up and I'm dreading it and thinking of how I can play it down to avoid anybody doing anything nice. Does this make me sound awful? I can't explain why I do it.