I had a uni lecturer who really took me under his wing during a really difficult time in my life. His name was Alan and he was the loveliest person. He was almost certainly gay, but of a time when coming out wasn’t something everyone did. He was always single as far as I knew, with lots of cats and houseplants. During uni, I lost my dad and had an awful boyfriend and was just struggling with direction in life.
Alan and I started having monthly cups of tea. And he just sort of counselled me through several years of big life transitions. I don’t know if I would ever have finished uni if not for his support. Also as he didn’t have a partner or children, I took on doing things for him, collecting his post when he was away, feeding the cats, I once drove him to the hospital and back home after an operation.
We kept in touch only sporadically after I graduated and moved away though, because I was in my 20s and I guess I thought he’d always be around. He was truly was such a pivotal person in my life. He looked after me and guided me in a parental sort of way that the other adults in my life maybe hadn’t done so well.
Maybe about 10 years ago, Alan got cancer and passed away quite quickly. I did get a chance to say goodbye and tell him what an impact he’d had on my life.
I thought I’d just been really lucky to find him at a time when I really needed that support in my life. But after his death, it was like they came from everywhere. So many other people like me who he’d met through teaching or doing theatre or charitable work or the local community group or whatever, all of us thought we were the only ones he was having cups of tea and chatting with while a cat laid on our laps in his conservatory.
All of us felt like he’d gotten us through some tough times with his mentorship and kindness. There were people he must have met 10 years before me and then others who must have been 10-15 years after me. 25 years worth of friendships and mentorship and cups of tea and none of us knew about each other really, but all of us had the same things to say about Alan. He was a true legend. I actually went into a teaching related field because of him, hoping maybe I could offer a similar sort of support and guidance to students that he gave to me.