3am, what keeps you awake at night?

[Onlythemother]

I've had a few sleepless nights recently due to losing my df and worried about my dm, and worrying about my adult son struggling in life atm.

I've had a lot of sleepless nights over my adult DCs in general, but also been awake in the night thinking about getting older, regrets and questioning myself why didn't I xyz eg stand up for myself to the rude neighbour, wave back to an old friend I hadn't seen in years etc

So what sort of things do other people think about at 3am?

A man.

Anxiety because I’m not where I thought I would be in life at 30 (birthday in a few months).

Everything and anything! Mainly about financial worries, health problems, my relationship, things I've done in the past. I'm so tired of it. I wish someone would knock me out every night.

Used to catastrophise about everything at 3am. I now take high dose magnesium before bed and it's worked wonders. I still wake for a wee, but go straight back to sleep vs worrying for hours.

Bloody fucking perimenopause. I used to sleep SO well until that hit. Now I'm up and wide awake at all hours.

My housing situation.

Remembering the bullying I experienced at school.

I have no idea what keeps me awake but I wish it wouldn't!

Perimenopause
Adult dd being off sick from work with anxiety doesn't get sick pay only ssp so will have to help her out financially again

Ongoing situation with my dsis who I am nc with and opg are now investigating her
Not being able to see dm because of the issue with dsis

And I have pulled my back so can't get comfortable for the last few nights

Knowing that my lovely, sensitive ds is marrying someone who doesn’t want children whereas he does. Even without that she’s not the right fit for him (his life yes I know) and he’s heading for a stressful life. Breaks my heart but nothing I can do other than be supportive.

The recent sudden loss of my 21 year old daughter. I am, and never will be the same person as before.

@LoudPlumDog I am so sorry for your loss

Third trimester insomnia and perinatal depression and anxiety alongside hyperemesis.

Lie awake at night worrying about the birth as I had PTSD and PND from having my first child 4 years ago.

The depression and anxiety is now manifesting itself as I think I am a crap mum to my existing child and I don’t know why I’m doing it again.

Anything and everything… ranges from an argument from 10 years ago to what I’m gonna make for dinner the next week.

Sending hugs. Can’t even imagine your pain.

A few nights ago it was why I got a crap score in a recent exam. I passed so in daylight I dont care, but in the night my brain feels it's very important.

DH

Work.

I can fall to sleep fine, I usually get home from work around 10:30pm and I’m asleep for 11:30pm-Midnight but my problem is I keep waking up at 4am ! And struggling to get back to sleep.
My partner is having a bad time since 6 months ago and has withdrawn… we’re “passing ships” at the minute too and it’s not good

Pain insomnia.
Excruciating horrendous pain.
( I'm severely disabled).
Sometimes anxiety ( worry about my family).

Sending healing thoughts .
💐

Service users in work. One took her life a few months ago and it has had a ripple effect.

Losing the man I loved. He ghosted me and I never saw or heard from him again. I still miss him terribly. I wake up often after dreaming about him overcome with sadness and an intense knot in My stomach .

My eldest son being subject to SA recently by someone in the extended family. It will probably spel the end of my current relationship in all liklihood

Paying bills

The pain of loneliness

@LoudPlumDog I'm so so sorry for your loss 💐 I hope you have support xx