Don’t want to ride this wave (anxiety related)

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I’ve been doing so well for so long.

I suffer with depression, anxiety and OCD (intrusive, repetitive, distressing thoughts)

Middle of the week something happened which left me feeling on edge. I started ruminating, feeling disconnected from my family and wanting to go to bed early (all early warning signs)

Today I inadvertently read something, while already feeling anxious, that’s sent me into a tail spin.

I’m so tired but too anxious to sleep. I just feel so sad that this is my life. That at any moment the rug can be pulled from beneath me and I can fall back into this pit of despair that I have to somehow claw myself out of.

I’d give so much for consistently good mental health.

I’ve got a good life with family and children. I work and have a lovely home.

I don’t know why I’m posting. I have people I can reach out to but I’m just lying here feeling very alone feeling as though m it’s only me in the world this evening in this mess.

I hope anyone reading this is having a peaceful evening

Please reach out to your family, one of the things that upsets me the most when my daughter feels the same as you, is that she doesn’t reach out.
I find out after/or when she’s in deep depression, and I wish she told me so I can sit with her, be there with her when she needs it.

your family love and need you xx

It will pass, you can get back to the good again.

Thank you @RoundRedRobin my dad always says the same. He’s so wonderful and I will reach out if it continues into next weeks

Thank you. It just all so tiring

Hi OP have you ever had therapy for the OCD? I’ve recently self diagnosed and now see an OCD specialist therapist. It has made a huge difference to many aspects of my life.

No I haven’t (stupidly). I usually have these intense crisis periods and then when they pass I like to forget all about them and just live life as normal, but unfortunately there’s always a next time. Do you know what sort of therapy you’re doing?