At what point did you realise you needed antidepressants?

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My mum passed away very recently, my relationship isn't the best but I financially cannot afford to leave. I have a lot going on, working and managing the house/children.

I just keep getting these overwhelming feelings of upset/anger/rage. I feel like I could throw something at a wall or gouge my eyes out. They go as quickly as they come. Would the antidepressants take this away?

I just want something to numb everything. I don't feel happiness anyway, if I could live like a robot just to get through the day to day it would help. I'm not sure if they would achieve this though? What would I say to my GP? I'm also very worried about weight gain

Go to the GP and tell them what you’ve written here, and let them decide. You’re likely to be offered counselling, which may well benefit you, before antidepressants.
Sorry for your loss.

Sorry about your mum, and that you don’t have the support at home. It makes grief even harder to process when other parts of your life are like that.

It’s hard with antidepressants as they don’t work the same for everyone and sometimes you may need to try a couple of different ones.

I’m on fluoxetine, second time I’ve been on them, for me personally they make me feel just a little bit stronger. As if my skin is thicker and I feel strong emotions a little less. It doesn’t fix the underlying issues obviously but it makes me feel like I can cope more

Also just to add I haven’t gained weight on any antidepressants. I would say they are the opposite for me as when I’m depressed I’m more likely to binge and eat rubbish
it does sound like counselling will help more long term but sometimes you need to feel strong enough to start that process first

Sorry for your loss OP. I take sertraline and have done for a few years but for anxiety. I knew I had to take them when the overwhelming feelings just left me in a permanent state of panic. They don’t numb everything, I’d say they sort of turn down the noise in your brain so you can deal with things better. I agree with the first poster, go to the GP and tell them what you’ve written here. It might be that you would benefit from some talking therapy first

It sounds like anxiety and you're grieving also, so sorry for the loss of your mum. I'm on Citalopram and they have helped, I really wouldn't worry about weight gain, if you feel better mentally you'll be more inclined to make better food choices, good luck and I hope you find help soon x

You need time to grieve. One stage of grief is anger though you describe it as rage.
This might be because your partner is causing issues and you feel you don’t have the space to grieve properly?
How bad is your relationship? Doesn’t he step up at all?
How young are your kids?
It might be worth talking to a counsellor first.