Hi,
Im 12 days PP and admittedly emotional and perhaps got the baby blues. This is my first child and i wasnt quite prepared for how much love I would feel for my newborn upon his arrival. However I have cried daily since 3 days PP due to the constant comments of "just you wait you'll turn around and they'll be a teenager" or "dont blink or you'll miss it" ect. This is giving me great anxiety that i am going to miss my little ones childhood. Even getting out of the house today with my partner and baby for a walk to get fresh air. We stopped for some lunch and people on the neighbouring tables were telling me "you need to appreciate every second because before you know it they will be 50 year old" causing me to get upset and asking my partner if we could leave. It got so bad that I was choosing not to sleep because in my mind if i didnt sleep I would maximise my time with my baby, I know this isnt healthy behaviour.
I'm very anxious for milestones such as growing out of baby clothes or loosing the newborn scrunch. I feel as though i went from so much joy and love in the first few days PP to having my bubble popped prematurely and veing replaced with crippling anxiety about my baby growing before I know it and can appreciate it.
I know im robbing myself further of time by spending all mytime being anxious about this and whats next rather than enjoying my baby in the here and now.
Im reaching out to other moms who have been through similar and came out the other side or moms that can give positive "just you waits" which will help change my perspective. I left lunch today having a full blown panic attack due to comments from passers by and know this outlook is not sustainable and robbing me of a time that should be my happiest especially as we were unsure if we could conceive and went through a lengthy process to get to where we are now with our child.
Thankyou for your input and advice.