Shamelessly posting here tonight because I know I’m not going to sleep

[drivinmecrazy]

So, I got a cancellation appointment with an oncologist tomorrow.
original appointment was next week.

sounds daft, but I’m fine if I can prepare myself for these appointments but this has come out of the blue.

I knew I was going to see the oncologist next week and I was ok with that.
but that was next week, not tomorrow!!

so now I seem to be panicking about it all.

thought I had it all under control but seems I don’t.

i had breast cancer but now I don’t.

im cancer free according to my consultant because I’ve had a mastectomy, after a lumpectomy.
so I should feel grateful.

I'm now looking ahead to a looong looong night, awake while my household sleeps.

Sending hugs and hoping for the best for you x 🫂💐🙏❤️

Do you think you might be able to settle and sleep at some point, or would it be better to write the night off?
If the first is possible, how about something sweet to eat or drink, and a warm blanket?
And if the latter, can you watch a TV series on low with subtitles?

Sleepless nights seem to grow legs and go on forever, I hope your body relents and lets you sleep.

Thank you for your reply.
unfortunately I’m a master of sleepiness at the best of times, regardless 😢

I'm sorry to hear you need to visit an oncology department🌷

do you have a partner there tonight? If not, do you have a child that wouldn't mind you cuddling up to them? Hopefully you have one or the other, if you do go and cuddle up to them and match their breathing, hopefully you'll drift off to sleep,

Failing a human, do you have an animal that would sleep on you?

If not then maybe a nice hot milky drink and a couple of biscuits under a blanket on the sofa with some boring monotone crap on TV (there's plenty of it!!)

give yourself permission not to sleep tonight!! Sometimes just taking the pressure off yourself helps.

Best wishes for tomorrow💕

Was it just a cancellation that was offered to you or do you think you have been asked to come in sooner because they have picked up something?
I am terrible with these things and think I must have been asked to come on sooner because there is something, rather than they have gone through a list of appointments to see who would like to be seen sooner.
I would probably go through the bedtime routine and just lie there. I tell myself nowadays that even if I don't asleep, at least I am resting which is almost as good as a nights sleep.
I hope it goes well tomorrow @drivinmecrazy

It doesn’t sound in the least bit daft to feel nervous.
Fingers crossed for you that tomorrow brings good news 💐
when I can’t sleep I decamp to the spare room and put on crap telly, episodes of birds of a feather or not going out, something that doesn’t require any brain power and is easy to follow. I also put my heated blanket on top of the duvet which acts as a warm weighted blanket and does help me nod off too. But I do go with the knowledge that I might not sleep and inevitably do. Also, feel free to judge me on my quality of crap telly 😂 there’s no sky on the telly in the spare room, I have iPlayer, U, Netflix, channel 4 and channel 5 on demand things, Disney plus and terrestrial so quite a lot of choice but I always gravitate towards the same things - monotony and routine! Get yourself comfy and relaxed somewhere and take the pressure off yourself to get to sleep.

I love that you asked about snuggly children or furry animals!

my ‘babies’ are 19&24. As lovely as they are , I think they are well past that point sadly.
as for furry bedfellows i do have our often crazy Weimaraner in bed with me tonight, so he’s a comfort.
DH has decamped into DD2’s room to keep the cat company.

Are there any nice things you can plan if you’re not going to sleep? A nice book, games on your phone etc?

Did you ask for the cancellation or have they called you? How worrying either way.

im about to write off my nights sleep also. So can keep you company, currently on the 2 week pathway myself awaiting the first appt though.

I have my fluffy little chihuahua on the bed with me. DH is away working. And two teen DS’s who are already asleep.

im binge watching

Hope all goes well tomorrow. They probably had a cancellation and wanted to make use of the appt. Take care x

I would crawl into bed with DH and the cat!! Taking the dog with me too. Put the loudest one to tune in with their breathing & snuggle up with all of them.

Yeah, the kids are their age where they would probably think 'what the absolute hell are you doing Mum? FGS get off.!!!' 🤣🤣

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how did you get on today? 🌷

@SpringIsSpringing25 was just wondering the same