I met a man 5 years ago and I wasn't expecting anything but possibly friendship. I might add he is 20 years older than me. Well we became friends the best of friends so I thought. I had some issues I had to deal with but I did and one of the major factors in that role was I knew I'd loose him and I feel so deeply in love with him . I didn't jump in bed with him it was 4 months before I finally thought I felt what true love was and I was finally happy . I was really happy. I guess I was able to get to know him or think I did and I never felt so loved so meaningful to a person and I never wanted it to end. I never thought it would end. There were things that happened but we always got through it . Then 3 years in I noticed he started being mean , always had something to do and the things we used to do just stopped and still have. Hed leave me for 1 or 2 weeks and I'd beg and cry for him to please stay because I knew he was seeing someone else. This woman hacked my phone accounts made accounts in my name stolen my pics and put a copy in an app on her phone. The police did nothing but give me a made up report number. I now suffer severe anxiety depression and I have no joy no happiness in my life because I stayed with him he came back after a month and swore he was back but I've noticed the same patterns and he's talking to her if not more. I can't believe he could be with someone that caused me so much hurt that I was suicidal. I love him or the memory of who he was . I just don't know why he has broken something that was so full of love happiness for a girl who only want him for what she can get. She ruinned the love of my life. That one love u wish u find . We had it and I remember telling him Please don't hurt me I don't know if I'll get through it . Once you had a taste of the love you always wanted and true happiness it changes you. You have an emptiness a sadness because u want that back so bad and u try so hard but if the other person doesn't feel it then you will never fill that emptiness. Please leave comment suggestions or advice. I don't know how much longer I can be sad. It's taken a toll on mean . I've lost from 123 to barely 100. I have never loved anyone the way I love him but he rather lie think I don't know her number . Why are certain texts encrypted? Why are photos edited. I hurt so bad because he can hurt me and not think twice. Thank you for your time. Alwaysready 17 to be loved