My daughter is nearly 8. She has a number of congenital abnormalities, and also has autism (encompassing quite severe behavioural difficulties) and has also been recently diagnosed with hypertonia. She is unable to walk far, and struggles with balance and physical education. I am a single mum, and her father does not believe in any of her diagnoses. Mainstream schools are unable to meet her needs (we have tried 3), and so she is home educated. We haven't got an IEP or EHCP.
I recently found out that the medication I took while pregnant has caused all of her disabilities. We have our first appointment with the lead consultant that specialises in the syndrome on Wednesday.
Throughout her life, we have just got on with whatever new diagnosis came our way. We overcame them, found strategies to help, and she is honestly the best thing that ever happened to me. I love her with all my heart. I am the kind of person that reads everything going, finds practical solutions, and just gets on with it. I don't cry, I don't get angry, I just get on with it. All of a sudden, this evening, it has hit me that I have stunted her life, her future, and her prospects. I am the reason that she struggles in ways she shouldn't have to, and I destroyed the life she could have lived before it even really began. I cannot stop crying, I feel like I can't even look her in the eye tomorrow.
Has anyone else been through something like this? I don't know what to do.