I had a really abusive childhood, every way imaginable. Broke free from my mother years ago, now she's in her last few weeks of life, so Im told, and I feel a bit numb about it all.
Today my 16yo and I were just hanging out, not doing much, chatting, eating, watching a film, and I said to her that I hope one day she is blessed with a daughter just like her (she really wants to be a mum one day, I wouldn't just say it).
I then had a flash back to all the times my Mother said to me "I hope you have a daughter just like you" as an insult when I was acting out due to the abuse.
Well I did have a daughter just like me, and it's been an absolute privilege to raise her and see what my life could have been like if I had a good Mum. It doesn't make me sad anymore, it makes me proud to have broken that cycle, and I'm so lucky to have my kids.
No real point to this thread really, just having a bit of a reflective moment.