Feel bad after socialising

[Zodiaclibra]

I always feel bad after social events, it’s like anxiety about what I’ve done or said and whether the other person dislikes me and is going to cut me off. Most of my friends only want to talk about other people or their own kids. It’s painfully boring and it’s not like I want deep conversation but they don’t even talk about tv shows or holidays it’s all gossip like I saw this person and they had a new car. I end up gossiping with DH about people because I feel so out of place in conversations with friends and want to check it’s not just me being mean.
Does anyone else feel like this?

They're just not your people, OP.

It sounds like you suffer from anxiety and don't have much in common with your friends anymore. Rather than bad mouthing them why don't you try to find new friends?

I'm the same after a night out my first thoughts on waking up are what did I do, or say, did I offend anyone, I think it's being a people pleaser.
But when you know your friends talk about everyone anyway you're bound to have anxiety that they are going to talk about you, which they probably do anyway.
They don't sound like nice people and they don't sound your type. Get different friends.

Thanks for the replies. I’ve been trying to make new friends and met some lovely people so hopefully those relationships develop.
After I posted this one of my friends actually texted to apologise for just talking at me about other people the night before.
I seem to have a horrible mix of social anxiety and people pleasing going on. I really dislike a couple of my friends but get worried they will cut me off and over compensate. I need to get more comfortable with awkward situations and conflict but don’t know how to