I'm tired. Just so tired.

[handbaglady101]

I'm 51. 2 DS and DH. Work FT, I work flexi hours from home.
It's currently half term. This week I have dragged myself out of bed around 9ish. No energy, half asleep. Come down stairs to a full clean dishwasher load waiting to be emptied and a full dirty load piled up in the side waiting to be loaded. I put the dishwasher on over night. I sort this every.single.day.

On a school day I cajole DS2 (14) for an hour to get up, while working and trying to hold/run meetings.. They are half asleep, bleary eyed, cant find half their uniform they have thrown around the room/house the day before. Moaning. Tired. They reluctantly get into the car and I drop to school. I come home to carry on working and then late morning have to spend an hour cajoling other DS1 (16, SEN), while working and holding/running meetings, to get up for their home tutoring. Around 11am I then have to cook the first meal of the day for DS1, while working and running meetings. DS1 has an eating disorder and has food made on demand. DS1 then has further tutoring sessions later in the day, I have to call them for these too.
DS2 then returns home from school starving, even though they have money for the school canteen We then make food/snacks - DS2 has a fairly long walk home from school, which is why we make their food/snack.

DS1&2 school admin/appts/lifts/managing finances/hobbies (mine & DS)/cleaning & sorting the house/home admin/seeing wider family/seeing friends/food planning, buying, prep/cajoling to get DS up every day.

I am just so so very tired every day.

I wish I could be a morning person who jumps out of bed at 6am full of beans and ready to go.

Does your husband do anything at all? You sound like a single parent from what you've written. It's no wonder you're knackered. I'd be letting DH know that he needs to step up and help because honestly you've got way too much on your plate and I'm assuming he's got fuck all on his by the sound of it

It is so tiring I sympathise. No alcohol, early nights and drinking plenty of water helps me but I'm not always very good at doing these three things.

@Devilsmommy DH is ASD and can just about cope with his workload let alone anything house/DC related. I book a weekly food shop delivery and he gets so very flustered just trying to update that online. He moans about the necessity of having to update it, he doesn't know what he wants to order/add, complains it's so difficult for him to do (from the sofa!), slates the website/ordering facility and says that he 'just cannot do it'. This is every week.

Another day, another full dishwasher to unload and reload first thing. Plus the recycling to put as out DC had pizza last night and the boxes need to go out, alongside some other large recycling packaging too which is taking up space in the kitchen. I've done it all. DC14 is moaning their clothes have not been washed, DC16 (SEN) is asking me to book more sessions for their hobby, DC14 needs a few appointments to be booked. There is mud all through the hallway from DC14, who has just left it & DC16 (eating disorder) needs food brought from a specific shop that is a 45min return journey at best, but I am working all day but I am the only one can go to the shop to get this food.