Feeling a bit blue

[Workinmomma]

I just need somewhere to vent. I can’t tell anyone in person really

I I think my husband hates me. It’s not a love filled marriage I try a bit but sometimes he’s u realistic and expects me to be sunshine and rainbows when I do all the childcare. It’s me for everything but he wants to call himself dad and say he’s their dad but is just a lazy shite. I know I said I think he hates me and I’ve just insulted him but he does wind me up. It’s so hard I don’t know what he expects.

he says all I want to be is a good mum and why wouldn’t I? I want my kids to be happy and healthy and think my mum is the best and give them an amazing childhood.

I just needed to rant sorry. I’m so extremely lonely trying to juggle everything and I don’t have adult contact apart from DH. My eldest is 3 and very shy and nervous , the only friend type I have is childless so meeting with her is hard.

I wfh and only speak to people virtually. So I am just so lonely. Sometimes I really enjoy charring to nursery staff at drop off or pickup. That’s sad isn’t it?

Things will get better but for now just need to get it off my chest and have a little cry when everyone’s asleep

Your life sounds very lonely. Your husband needs to change his attitude yesterday. Tell him you want couples counselling or you need to end it. He needs a big fat wake up call. Set some clear boundaries? This is no way to live. You are trapped by wfh and your children, with no outlet for your loneliness. You think he's a lazy shite. You say he doesn't love you. I don't see much reason to stay with him, but if there was once a spark perhaps it can be rekindled? Otherwise cut your losses. All the best.

I can't offer any advice but I know how you feel as I'm in a similar situation. I'm crying every single day about it.

How sad I feel for both of you.

Life is infinately better to be a single mum than to be in a relationship where either your other half hates you, loathes himself but taking it out on you. Your child will pick up on it and repeat the pattern.

Start getting your ducks in a row for the long-term gain. Job, financial self-sufficiency, therapy, talking to mates, strangers who are in a similar situation, even just online, family you can talk to, whatever it takes.

Wishing you both the best.

Thanks @suburberphobe

Its not a happy place to be currently. Can't sleep.