Ungratefully depressed

[CaptainCrosspants]

I have so much to be grateful for (beautiful kids, health so far, parents still alive though frighteningly elderly) and yet I feel so selfish and almost like I'm tempting fate with my ungratefulness because I spend so much time cross, teary and low. I find it hard to enjoy my kids even though I love them so much - my tolerance threshold is just low. I don't know why it is. I've been very down about the news etc and I've just been filled with this horrible hopelessness. And instead of responding with gratefulness and warmth, I'm cold and crotchety and selfish. I just feel selfish and lazy and I don't know how to get out of it!

Please go and speak to your GP.
There can be underlying, easily treated, issues that can cause you to feel cross, teary and low. At the very least you need a blood test to rule out any underlying causes, and maybe signposting to some talking therapy if all is well with your blood tests.
Look after yourself.

Thank you, I did go a few months ago. Standard bloods are normal. They've given me some ADs and though they've helped with anxiety they haven't sorted this low feeling. I think I might just be lazy and selfish, honestly.