Scared and need a handhold

[Grapesandtea]

I’m in tears and cannot sleep tonight as I’m scared.

Have been sick for 8 weeks and broke down after putting my toddler to bed tonight. I’m usually strong, healthy and resilient but something broken in me tonight.

I have been sick with a virus (negative for covid and flu A) since end of November and just cannot get better. No one can diagnose me and I cannot function. Had bad cough, shoulder and chest pain, palpitations, few blackouts, dizziness, throat closing and cannot do anything without getting chest pains and getting breathless. It is so bad i cannot leave the house or walk more than few minutes. Had 2 sets of antibiotics, inhalers, steroids, X-ray was clear, heart is fine just episodes of tachycardia.

My toddler asked about grandpa who died of lung cancer few years ago and i lost it, couldn’t stop crying. I feel like I will never get better and maybe I have it too.

Just an update. I went to GP today as had temperature and a horrid cough with chest pains and crazy high hr again. Got atypical antibiotics, sputum sample request and private CT referral plus some further blood tests plus stronger painkillers. At least they were not dismissive as before.

Thank you all for very valuable advice, I felt I knew what to ask for and maybe there is some hope I can get better or at least get a diagnosis!