I really want to cry . I have been ill since new year. I have had something very similar to covid . Which i caught of my GS which then got passed on to my children after 4 or 5 days everyone started getting better. But I didn't. I had the covid type symptoms and on top I could not catch my breath to talk, my legs are weak and shakey I can feel myself trembling. I'm litterly pissing myself. I have to lean on the wall so I don't fall the gp said it was just this flu/covid thing .
I left it few more days and I rang again I litterly cried down the phone and said I can't take anymore . I have the above symptoms. My chest hurts. It feels like ice i feel like I can't breath and im breathless all the time. I said I was scared they would ask me to go to the surgery but I can't. She was understanding and has given me antibiotics to see if they help . Day 3 seemed to have made a difference so I guess they are doing something.
I'm on day 4 now but I still feel awful. I'm waking up in the night fighting for breath and I can feel my heart racing. It takes me ages to recover from iI try and sleep proped up but I don't think I stay there for long . When I sit up on the side of it bee I'm very breathless again it's like I can't get my breath back and it's ice cold in my chest .
My kids have not been to school since Christmas. I can't get them in. The school know why I have been completely honest with them.
My secondary child was of ill at first as well but she recovered fast like the others. But she won't get herself up for school. She should but she won't. I can't get up the stairs to her and I can't shout because of the breathing . Dd does not seem to give a toss how hard it is. Some I don't think she understands like how can you get breath just sitting on your bed etc.
Her school did a welfare check a few days back i couldn't even speak to them. I just kept saying yeah. I don't know what i said yeah to . They could see how bad things were.
I'm going to tell dd she's going to get herself up. If she does not I will tell the school she's been taking advantage of the situation i will be completely honest with them. Then I'm hoping if someone who's not me she will take it on board .
My primary school children's school know why they have been off they have been fine with it. But im going to ring and see if there can be a deeper conversation possibly something put in place.
I'm not looking for solutions. I'm not one of them parents. Who have lots of friends,neighbours, school mums, car, lifts,money for ubers ,money for childcare etc. As I said im not looking for a solution that's why I'm going to reach out to the school.
I purely wrote this because I have had enough of being so ill and struggling with the most basic stuff. I feel like its messing me up mentally and emotionally to because its gone on so long. I just wanted to express things . I will ignore anything nasty I cant cope with them just now .
I did message my adult son. But I did not want to put things on him. So I posted here instead.