For background I’m NC with my mother as she abused and neglected me as a child. It took many years for me to find the courage to stop contact and when I did I felt relief.
I went through the normal stages of anger that she treated me that way and no one helped me, to sadness that I’ve never experienced a mothers love, to eventually not caring at all and feeling free.
I heard from a relative my mother is very alone these days, no one has contact with her anymore and she was alone at Christmas without so much as a window light (she used to go ott on decorations). For some reason this made me feel quite sad and felt sorry for her. I have no idea why as anyone willing to hurt a child deserves pain and sadness.
I don’t know if this is just me being a sympathetic person or if it’s a sign I haven’t moved on fully?
i had counselling for years but it didn’t help. I’m still on anti-d’s. I hadn’t thought about her for a long time until the comment (which was told to me in humour as the relative despises her too).
im not sure how to process these feelings. I don’t want anything to do with her and I’d never contact her again.