I am a single parent. I am widowed and dd 2 and 3 dad wants absolutely nothing to do with them and has told them as in his words he is too busy bringing up his new family and he doesn’t want the hassle of them anymore.
dds have no grandparents/aunts or uncles and only a couple of cousins who they rarely see. My only brother is in Germany.
I have 4 young grandchildren as my older children have kids.
i have done everything this Christmas. Everything.because there’s no one else too. And there would be no Christmas if I didn’t. To be honest I feel that I’ve failed.
dd17 has spent her entire wages on Christmas presents for us al, I said to budget and be careful because she has bills to pay. She didn’t and now she’s skint and asking to borrow money which I don’t have so I’ve said no. Cue strop.
dd 14 has moaned because I bought the wrong Apple Watch, it hasn’t got the strap she wanted and she’s upset.
dd17 has the most awful table manners, she loudly burps at every meal, and refuses to stop,when I asked her not to several times,!she said well I can’t help it and today she did it repeatedly at the table and even my son told her off as he can’t bear it. So she went in a mood about that.
she got up at six and woke me up, she was on FaceTime with her friend and then followed me round the house talking loudly, asked her not to then I snapped and told her to either go in her room or end the call. I needed to do their stocking and couldn’t do them when she was there. That was wrong.. she said I was ungrateful because I didn’t want to open the Christmas presents there and then.
Now she’s sulking in her room because she wants to play board games and watch films and be all jolly.
to tell the truth I am exhausted. I’ve had an awful year, I’m grieving my mum and my husband, overwhelmed, I have adhd, and I’m dealing withndd14 who is also adhd/asd and is having a rough time in school. I cooked, tidied up, put on a brave face and smiles, they don’t tidy up or help, throw their rubbish in the floor and I just want a couple of hours this afternoon to sleep before I have to be normal again ( I’m dealing with heart issues and kidney disease as well as arthritis) . dD17 has gone in a massive mood, crying and saying I’ve ruined Christmas and I’m horrible.
my ds is 25 and bless him he helped clean up after the dinner even though he’s not well himself.
he’s gone home now.
maybe I have ruined it, I am useless, wish I could be one of those perfect smiling mums who are organised and get Christmas done in October but I’m not.
I’m done. And exhausted and a bloody failure.
soorynfor moaning, I know some of you have had horrible days, and suffering from loss etc, I am thinking of you all x