It’s been a pretty awful one. My mum died earlier this year so this Christmas was always going to be difficult. But now my DP is very unwell and is fully reliant on me for all care needs ( he was well and at work 4 weeks ago). We went to A&E last week- not admitted but things have got worse. I can’t lift him myself. My family and his all live in another country except for 1 of my brothers ( who has a dodgy heart and can’t be lifting either) . My brother meant to come to us for dinner today . I want my DP to go to hospital but he “doesn’t want to let everyone down at Xmas” - even though he is in so much pain. He is crawling to mobilise. He’s nauseated from the painkillers . My brother really doesn’t mind if we cancel - he understands but I don’t know what to do.
I’m exhausted. I took emergency annual leave from work end of last week and beginning of this. I thought things would be better but they are getting worse instead. I’m due in work Friday ( NHS)
I feel completely broken . Im scared for DP. I really miss my mum. I have amazing friends but I’m not going to call them in tears over Christmas. I don’t know how I can realistically cope at work and care for DP . The mental and physical strain is immense.
Dont know why I’m starting a thread. Just want to get it off my chest I suppose