Firstly I should say that I am very grateful for what I have already, I don't take that lightly.
I'm 43 with an 11 month old. My partner has cancer and starts treatment in 3 or 4 weeks. He's been referred for sperm banking because after treatment starts he must not get anyone pregnant for 18 months (and there may be longer term issues).
I'm still breastfeeding and not yet had a period.
I know there would be no guarantees that we could have had another child especially at our age, and we absolutely would have been ambivalent about trying, regardless of the cancer. So I'm not looking for validation or criticism of that.
Just sad today to think that this is the end of our road. Sad for myself, my partner, and our beautiful little one whom I think would be a great sibling.
Since I was a teenager I'd envisaged myself having at least a couple of kids. I guess we just met each other too late.