Does anyone know of any cheap if not free counselling services don’t really want to go to my GP about it as I don’t think it’s important enough for an appointment that’s difficult enough to get…
I do not like my mum, I don’t enjoy spending time with her I hold a lot of resentment towards the way she treated me and her actions towards me in my childhood, teenage years and young adulthood. I don’t really want to go into it but Social services were involved.
But now I’m an adult, I have kids that like their grandmother I have a sister who my mother adores and if I want to spend time with my sister I have to assume my mother will be there too, if we have family occasions we’re very much female oriented so we might have days out etc. she will be there. So I have to put up with her if I want any kind of family relationships
My issue is I hate when my Mother asks me what I’m doing, where I’m going, stupid mundane questions it triggers me and I end up snapping at her, which is embarrassing to do in front of your family when to them she’s asked a relatively simple question.
I feel like my irritation at her has gotten worse in recent weeks. She was in my house earlier and I came home from work and I just thought why are you here please leave. But she was with my sister who has been babysitting for me so there wasn’t much I could do and she loves her mother so feels like I should just get over it.
I did try counselling a few years ago but I found it very self indulgent to pay someone what I felt was quite a lot of money that I could of been saving or spending on my kids to talk about myself for an hour. (No judgement to anyone else, these are my own feelings)
I realise this might be mundane but these thoughts are consuming me just seems to be what my mind is focusing on
I should be asleep now so I’m hoping this all will make sense if I read it back in the morning