Cannot stop crying wtf is wrong with me?

[LovesCompany]

I just want to cry all the time, and often do. Just spent 30 minutes crying under the shower. Thinking about the crying just makes me want to cry again. Why am I like this?

Thank you also very much for the birthday flowers, I really bloody needed wanted them!

OP, although it does sound as if you've every right to a cry, you actually sound as if you're really strong and resilient. The things you've described as steps you've taken are so sensible and measured.

If you love to read, I would very happily send you some books to see you through the gap until you can get to the library (I know that nowhere in your messages have you asked for anything) if you let me know what kind of books you have enjoyed previously. I have kids books, too, right across the age range, and would be happy to pack some up for you. Or, if you have a kindle, you could send me your kindle email address and I could ping some books across. Drop me a DM if you would like either.

You sound overwhelmed and this is your body's response. I get like this when things are too much. I was worse before my periods stopped and some days it felt like my emotions were very close to the surface.

Also with this bug virus thing I've been in tears. It's a difficult time of the year which compounds things for many people.

Just a wee quick morning hello & check in

I had a very old-fashioned ‘normal’ day yesterday, something which I have not had in ages

it coincided with other events that I had made efforts on but wasn’t sure would be taken seriously or actioned by others

the difference of going to bed and waking up feeling replenished and a bit stronger to face a new day with it’s own challenges is always somewhat of a surprise

this time it reminded me of you and this thread (and a few others of previous weeks or months)

I’ve popped on this one to give a wee supportive boost and a reminder that efforts of digging deep for self-care may take a bit of time to bear fruit but are always worth it

giving voice to our needs is an act of self-care too

overcoming the fear of other people’s possible (non) response to our needs is a challenge that does seem to get less challenging with practice

people can and do help, not everyone maybe, but the world has good people who will listen and act

a wee 🙏🏼 for you and everyone on thread or reading for strength to self-care this Christmas (and beyond) whatever the budget or other challenges

Thank you so much, that’s so kind. Thank you for thinking of me.

I am en route to see the oncologist who called yesterday afternoon to see if I could come in urgently. Let’s hope it’s a box-tick before he goes off for Christmas. Really hope.

Happy thoughts and positive vibes to everyone.

I’m not sure what to say other than I hope it was an encouraging meeting with positive steps forward and that you have support irl for a big hug

I’m sure we can all take a moment to think of everyone facing challenges rn and collectively hope for the best in 2025

Hope everyone is having a lovely Christmas (if you celebrate, otherwise a lovely day).

I get like this when I'm overwhelmed. I've got this flu bug whatever it is thing and it's made me cry because it just won't lift.

Yours could be that your HRT needs reviewing?

Thank you @LovesCompany , hope you are keeping well and have a lovely Christmas

Thank you Loves, wishing a peaceful day for everyone 🕊️