I just feel I need to get this out as it happened back in 2010 but I've found myself thinking about it a lot recently. I've been having counselling for a while now regarding some past traumas and I've never mentioned this particular incident. I seem to keep thinking about it though and feel anxious.
Back then, I'd stayed in touch with an ex boyfriend and he was going away on holiday and asked if I wanted to flat sit while he was away as he was living in a coastal area and I might fancy the break. I agreed as I had no plans that summer. I arrived as he was getting ready to leave for his and all of a sudden he came onto me quite physically, trying to hug me and be quite affectionate which I didn't want. I think I froze but I can remember him getting me to lay down on the bed with him and being very touchy all over me (over clothes). The details are quite patchy in my memory but I remember him then leaving and me feeling terrified, heart pounding etc and just wanting to go home. I remember feeling scared incase he came back. He wasn't aggressive but scared me - I never told anyone.
Not sure why it keeps coming back into my mind but I wanted to just 'get it out' somewhere.