Basically i've got a baby almost 1yo. it's been so hard as i've got no family relatives close to me that could give me some physical or emotional support. the father of the child lives with me as i feel bad for him cause he hasn't got anywhere to go. but im just sick of this. he doesn't contribute with one penny for nothing. he just sits at home all day like a slob playing video games. i'm close to coming back to work, and my anxiety is on fire as he barely even helps with his own child, so how can i feel safe leaving my kid with his own father who never even changed a nappy? i know im the one in the wrong for keep accepting this but it's really getting to me i don't even love him no more. love him for what? not even just referring money wise, but no help, nothing. every single bill in this house is paid by me, this baby depends on me for everything, can't even go out alone for more than an hour as he already cries for me( im breastfeeding) plus paying for food, plus baby stuff, my brain is exploding from all of this.
but with work just round the corner i don't know how am i gonna coope. literally that's how sad my life is, im going to work to get the bills paid and make sure to give a normal life to my child, while the father just sits at home waiting for everything to be done for him, just like a bum. i know i should just get rid of him, but i've tried and is never successful and then i feel bad for him even tho he doesn't feel bad for me