I have a dark and gloomy feeling

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I have an extremely dark, gloomy feeling.

It's just coming on me since yesterday. I just feel uneasy.

I am facing many different issues right now in my life and I guess I am finding it all far too overwhelming.

1. work can become extremely intense at times. Also it's not like a regular employee situation and there's a few different layers to my employment and pay. In recent times I had issues with pay and also management would like me to study and I am having difficulty due to the physical hours that I am doing. I was told last month to start on a course and I still wasn't able to do it. Not because I don't want to. The time is just not there. Between work and catching up with things in my own living.

2. I work hard but rental properties in my area is few and far between and very expensive. So I live at home with a parent. She's not diagnosised with anything but I see things daily from her that doesn't make sense. There is definitely a cognitive decline with her. Just this morning I tried to confide in her and I got an onslaught if abuse from her. I think maybe she wasn't fully able to understand it comprehend what I was saying and it resulted in her acting out.

3. I am getting harassed from the fall out of a friendship. It's long term harassment and the police never helped me when I needed help and the civil law also didn't help me and referred me back to the police. I was bounced around between police and civil law.

4. there are two birthday parties coming up in December that I am dreading. It's just going to me more expense. More demand on my time.

I just have an extremely awful uneasy feeling right now. Can't really put my finder on it.

I have a hairdressers appointment booked for two weeks for my regular trim. I was looking forward to it but I feel like cancelling and just hibernating. Even though I like my hairdresser and he lifts me up.

There's just different layers of so much crap. So many people just dumping on me. Noone understands what I am going through.

Anyone?

poor you that sounds rough. hang in there
I would say focus on changing things, focussing on one step at a time.
Sod off the parties - provided you're polite that is easy to say no to. Arrange to meet the people at another time that is easier for you rather than expensive and difficult.

The harrassment sounds awful - no idea what to suggest, but maybe you need some therapy? Ask your GP, you sound very stressed and someone to talk to might be helpful.

one small thing at a time! speak to your mum's GP about her decline. may not be easy but even if you write in confidence to the GP they may not be able to speak to you about her specifically but they might advise you on what you can do or if they can help in some way.

I’m sorry that you are feeling overwhelmed- life can sometimes throw everything at once and the tone of your post seemed sad and frightened. The cold and dark November nights don’t help either.

I would echo a PP who suggested contacting the GP about your mum. And perhaps you need to speak to him/ her too? You deserve care as well.

A note of caution: if your employer is requiring you to undertake training or a course, I might try to do this purely to protect your current salary and prospects? Would you be able to talk to your immediate boss or supervisor about how you do want to do this but you are struggling to sort it at present? I can see that it might just feel like ‘one more thing’ but protecting your career and your future is very important. Of course, they might just be being unreasonable so ignore this if I’m way off.

Good luck, OP. And take vitamin D - just in case!