I was just wondering if anyone has a mum like mine?
If I'm going through a really bad time my mum will be there, right by my side, commiserating how terrible my life is. She wants to know all of the details. She will even confide in others about how terrible things are for me.
If I'm going through a really good time, my mother will point out everything wrong with my situation. Will laugh at me for being naive. Will remind me that I'm not that good or that special. Will basically take a baseball bat to my self esteem. Will go out of her way to destroy any achievements.
Following that terrible behaviour, which has left me fighting for life, with nothing positive left. She will go back to being momma bear, right by my side, always here for you, you poor pathetic sod.
I don't believe that her behaviour is that unusual. I've recently called her out on it. I'm late 40s and it's taken me this long to really accept the reality....because of course I just wanted a nice relationship with her. Since calling her out, instead of stopping, she has escalated.
I am exhausted by her. I feel like she is very blind to who I actually am. I'm purely a receptacle for her projections.