I'm finding this really tough

[Autumn5000]

I've recently ended my 4 year relationship. It was for the best, felt like there was minor emotional abuse. We have been sorting out our holiday we were suppose to be going on. Ex was trying to guilt me.into going and offering to pay obviously I've said no.
Anyway this weekend so far I've just felt SO lonely. My DS is with his dad (not my recent ex) as I share him 50/50.
I'm just feeling so sad and low. I feel like can't have a decent relationship. I feel like I'm going to be on my own continuously into old age. I have very few friends and the ones I do have we only see each other now and then and don't text often.

Just writing on here so I feel less lonely and less likely to message Ex.

Well Done OP.
This is never easy to do but you have showed great strength in ending a relationship that wasn’t right.
From here on out things can and will get better.
Perhaps start by looking at some ways to start something new in your life. A new hobby for instance to meet new people and make new friends.
Good Luck!

From my experience it's very normal to feel lonely when a relationship ends - I felt like there was a big hole in my life and just a vast emptiness when I looked to future. So please know you're not alone in feeling this way. It will get easier, and over time that hole will diminish to the point where you'll wonder how you had time for them in your life at all. For me, what helped was trying to keep myself busy and forcing myself to go along to things even when I really didn't feel like it. Meeting new people who knew nothing of my ex also helped.

You've done the right thing, ending it, if there was emotional abuse.

It'll take you a while to figure out how to meet new friends, but have a look at Meet Up and see if there's anything going on locally.

How old are you?

Thanks I did something new last night with Dsis. It was fun and it's something I can take DS to do aswell and he enjoys it too. So that's positive

Thank you, I'm 33.

I had a dream last night that I had a nice boyfriend and relationship 😢🙈
I'm actually looking forward to work tomorrow as it will be a great distraction.
No clue what I'm going to do today, I need to do something to keep myself busy

These are all normal feelings and it is even more normal to feel you want to express them

Do however try and be circumspect and think did you feel low for an unacknowledged reason and then as a reault end your relationship or did you feel low because of your relationship

We don't know your circumstances but it is important to truly understand what caused and when your low feelings started as if the relationship was not the primary cause then you run the risk of repeating the same cycle again and again and causing the unnecessary ending of a relationship

It's just very important to understand why