Not sure where to post this....
To my husband
Do you remember The time you told me it looked like Freddy crouger had attacked my stomach- those stretch marks gave us 4 children. I'm proud of them but thanks for your opinion.
The daily reminder I'm a shit mum, but yet im the one who clothes the kids, feeds them, baths them, attends school assemblies, attends appointments, reads them story's for bed, comforts them, cuddles them, sits up in the night when their poorly- where are you?
You question why I avoid going out with you as a family, you put me down telling me to "shut up" when I'm playing with my children, you say I'm looking at men when I'm simply watching my children, you tell me I don't act like an adult when I stutter as I'm nervous around you- I will forever avoid been with you outside
The times you give me 101 things to do or tell me we have plans so I don't get to see friends and family or miss family events , I know it's always coming and what was going to happen so I no longer made plans, I just did as I was told, you used to win
The times you call me a skank for having sex before I met you, this is simply life my friend. I was honest and told you I had sex before I met you but never have I ever done anything to disrespect you in the 11 years Iv been with you, I devoted my life to you at the age of 17, you was 32.
The times you call me fat, ugly, skank, scruffy, slag, you've said them to many times for me to care anymore....
the times you spit in my face, grab me around my neck or push me if I answer you back, the times you throw things at me if I don't tidy them up quick enough.
You question why I don't want you to touch me when you want sex and why I'm constantly on my period, I just want to be alone on my own why would I want someone to touch me who thinks so little and horrible of me ?
I give my children everything I have to ensure they have the best life, everything they need and have the most amazing experiences.
TO MY HUSBAND
I hope to god my sons don't grow up to treat a woman the way you've treated their mum
I hope my daughters never ever find a man who treats them the way their dad treated their mum
I hope they grow up to consider how they make others feel and want to make people happy and love others.
TO MY HUSBAND soon to be EX
You no longer have any hold on me, physically, financially, mentally!
Me and MY children are gone, we have a brand new home and we ARE leaving. My ducks are in a row and this isn't a decision Iv made lightly. Our new lives are going to be filled with happiness, the best memories and just pure love without the anxiety that you bring when we know you're coming around us.
TO MY BABYS
I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to get us out, I didn't do it on purpose but this is alls Iv ever known when I met your dad,I found the courage to get help mentally and speak up- this helped me to secure our future and what we have now and I promise il forever make this up to you and show you how life should be lived, no shouting or daddy smashing things up, we can get up and have lazy days with films, we can make slime, have takeaways on the sofa, we can go be feral in the woods and get dirty, make dens and have our crazy dance party's - the house will clean and I don't care so just be happy, lifes for enjoying as tomorrow isn't a promise. But I promise this is what I will show you
Here is to 2025
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