I feel like I have spent a lot of my adult life moaning that I haven't got any time to do the things I want. Yet as I begin to approach retirement I'm not actually sure what I do want.
DH & I have been having a bit of a philosophical discussion about it. Partly underpinned by wanting to move house pre-retirement and not being sure where we want to be or what exactly we want. Like lots of people we have been busy for the past couple of decades with more than full time jobs and running DC round at weekends between looking after our house and garden. So our own pastimes have taken a back seat and the idea of free time is a bit of a novelty.
We were talking this morning about how pre children and pre internet, one of our days off each week would usually involve a shopping trip to buy books, records, cosmetics, clothes etc. Now we mostly do that sort of shopping online and neither of us enjoy a trip to a shopping centre.
I mean I have things I enjoy doing. I love cooking and enjoy craft activities. We also enjoy holidays and days out. I'm just a bit stuck on the day-to-day. We enjoy walking the dogs, but I don't want that to become the highlight of my day.
Is this just nervousness about ageing or a pre retirement crisis? And what should a late 50's woman be filing her time with?