I had a very good pregnancy, a ‘not so good’ labour experience, a very good delivery but shortly after I was in a very bad way. I was diagnosed with post partum psychosis and thereafter ptsd. I’m nearly 5 years down the line now and whilst I’d say I’m 80% better I can’t help but feel how much my life has changed and the impact it’s had on me. I won’t say my labour was something I would have thought would result in what it has done. I was induced and had the option of having my own room for a small charge which I was really happy and grateful to have. I was in a lot of pain which I expected I would be. I was ignored when I buzzed for help, which was twice and I was generally left in the room and checked on each couple of hours. I was told I had a reaction to whatever had been given to me during my labour / delivery. Bizarrely to this day I’m not sure what that was, how much I had etc. I contacted my local hospital, I have parts but not all of copies of my orange maternity book but there is nothing to say what I had or how much, I find that odd. I had a pain free delivery and what I would describe as feeling out of my own body. There are a lot of unanswered questions which I’ll never get the answers too, I’m ok with that. I just can’t help but feel though that I’ll never be the same person again. My personality is different, I do have PTSD. I was referred for urgent therapy for that and it did help. I am however constantly on high alert, I’m more emotional, I feel like a shell of my past self.
I just wondered, has anyone else had PPP? Did you recover fully? Was it something that got better each year?
The hospital which I had my daughter at which is a very large city hospital said they had never had a case of PPP at their hospital, I find that hard to believe? Is it that unusual? Or is it more common?