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[professionaloverthinker]

Morning. This is a bit of a hard post to write for me and I don't really know where to start but does anyone on here suffer from PPD (paranoid personality disorder) or have been through psychosis?
I got diagnosed with this and EUPD a few years ago and my life is just hard, every single day is a battle with my head and constant paranoia about every little thing. I try my best to over come it. I'm a mum of 4 and I work so I'm trying so so hard not to let it run my life but it's HARD. There's no joy in anything because my head finds ways to ruin every situation I am in 😔 I'm so drained.
Anyway I was just wondering if anyone can rate and wondered what helps you cope? I'm sick of just existing. I want to start living again.

Thank you

Anyone?

I get what you mean. I am constantly second guessing myself. It’s a bit like having “hangxiety” but all the time.

Things that help me: 1) less coffee - not kidding, it makes me way more anxious. 2) being busy. More busy = less time to overthink things. 3) exercise and sleep. 4) less alcohol - the paranoia kicks in worst at 3am after drinking.

Have you had any treatment such as DBT?

Thank you for your replies. Yea I've completely cut out coffee and I haven't touched alcohol in over two years and these definitely have made a difference be it a small one.

Yea I've been in therapy for a while now and although it does help sometimes my brain doesn't have time to use what I've been taught if that makes sense as I go from 0-100 with my thoughts it's like I don't have any rational thinking while I'm in panic mode

Are you on any medication? Sertraline really helped me, it stopped the negative mindset and helped me cope day to day. After a while, I started to find small pleasures in life.

@ThianWinter I am on anti psychotics at the moment. They definitely help as before I was on them I wouldn't leave the house without being petrified.

I probably just sound like a right whinge arse about it all and people probably have it much worse. I certainly don't use it as an excuse for anything its just bloody hard lol wish I could re programme my brain lol