I suffer from anxiety which comes and goes. It's generally related to my health, but has been increasingly centred around my children. I generally manage it ok, I've had CBT which was relatively helpful when it comes to doing specific things like flying.
My big anxiety coming up is parents evening. I hate it. I have two DDs who always get glowing reports. However, with DS it always feels like the same, slightly negative and never really saying anything positive. I obviously think he's a lovely, bright boy, but I also know that he can be unfocussed and day dreamy. Classic, could try harder territory. I understand teachers are just doing their jobs and being honest. But I am always braced for the same thing every year, and its starting to cause me real anxiety to the point where I just want DH to do parent evening so I can avoid it.
I dont know why it has such a triggering reaction in me, the reports are never even terrible. It's just when you hear other people saying how great their children are doing, and obviously my DDs are like that. It just ramps up my anxiety even more. Generally after the parents evening I will spend weeks stressing about whether DS is ok, what happens if grows up and doesn't lead a fulfilled happy life etc etc. It's just the same predictable thing every time. I just want to hear someone say something good about him, if that makes sense?
I need to get a grip of this though, and Im hoping some people can give me some advice to help. I need to mother up, and face these things rather than become totally avoidant.