Just some background. I grew up in quite chaotic circumstances with a mother that had mental health issues. My father left her before I was born which was hard for her in the 70s. Finances were all over the place as she couldn't hold down a job and as a result some days there wasn't food or electric.. She was sectioned for a time and I lived between grandparents and my aunt. As a child I felt ashamed but masked it just to get through. It was like walking on egg shells as my mum was so unpredictable and I'd be worrying about her moods. I managed to get qualifications and a good job and my life years later is totally different. However I find it so hard to shake off anxiety, I always worry what people think of me (my mum was paranoid about people talking about her) and that I don't fit in. I have a lovely home, good husband and kids, nice friends but I don't feel like I fit sometimes. I just wish I could enjoy life without the anxiety. Does anyone identify?