Hi all, my dear dad passed away 3 weeks ago and his funeral is tomorrow. I’m not sure how to feel or how I should be feeling but my stomach is in knots, my hair is falling out and I keep having momentary panic episodes.
Dad was my everything and he’s been a constant and regular exceptional dad and grandad to myself and my siblings and kids. He had lymphoma 4 years ago and this went into remission with chemotherapy, 2 years later it returned and this time it meant business…he tried everything with an upbeat and positive attitude until we were told no more could be done. Dad came home and we all did our bits to make sure he could stay there as he wanted and we were with him at the end.
the ups and downs and dad being on his own (no partner) so we were his all made it so much harder, the emotions we went through, seeing my dad cry and feeling so helpless to take away for him was the hardest thing ever! I’m now struggling with the aftermath and worried how I’m going to manage going forward…I don’t want to go back to work, I just feel like running and to keep running….how do you cope with what’s in front of us after something like this?