If I told you these things about me. Would seeing a gp be the answer

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This will probably come across a big mess because that's how my brain is rn

My brain never ever is quiet. Thinking of lots of things at once. Making scenarios in my head that tbh are never going to happen or not likely to - think losing my dc in a foreign country ( never been abroad) falling off the top of a huge building like the eiffel tower!
Making up conversations I'd have with people In my head people I know but despise and wouldn't give them the time of day let alone actually having a conversation with them. But imagining it like I'm having a bloody coffee with them

It's just racing all day. Even waking up for 2 to 3 hours at night thinking about random stuff.

I feel I have sensory overload the majority of the time. Kid noise , music in the car , clothing not feeling right , labels lately are a huge irritation In clothing. Today j was shopping and I ripped my sweatshirt off like a mad woman as I could feel the tag, it's a sweatshirt I've worn 100s of times ! Long sleeves indoors I can't do unless it's a dressing gown. Sleeves I can't roll up. Metal spoons I've just had to buy kids ones today for my soup
Wtf is happening to me, I can't fully explain. It seems 100 different things all at once

I'm constantly exhausted mentally and physically. I appear to have a bit of water retention in my legs they're puffy and my veins are also getting worse. Varicose veins run in the family. My legs constantly ache and throb.

Mid 40s , recent bloods for my over 40s ( delayed) check were all fine.

4 dcs , dh works long days but also does loads when he can , that's never an issue.
I set myself too many things to get done in a day , there's only so much that can get done while the dcs are at school and pre school. Then I end up just going to bed as everything seems impossible

I feel I need to see gp some days but what on earth am I going to say. How the hell do I even say all that without looking bat shit.
I never go to gp for myself I always feel embarrassed, even if was for an earache or something.

Yet for the dcs I'd be there in a flash and can explain what's what

Sounds like menopause or peri. Take some time for yourself. Slow down. It's not a crime to rest and re charge.

Thank you. Would it still be menopause or peri if my hormones were fine in my bloods. They were done in Sept. As part of the routine over 40s nhs check. Can't get on my app to check the actual levels but i was told all OK. No change in periods / sweats or anything.

You sound anxious, GPs are only too happy to hand out anti anxiety drugs usually.

What time do you get to yourself? Can you carve some out, for exercise, fresh air, crafting, dancing, whatever floats your boat and puts you back in the present moment.

Adhd exacerbated by peri.

Had you looked into adhd in women? I did some training recently to support a new starter to my team and in doing so relaised I show very strong signs. I'm on the fence about a diagnosis as I don't think it's affecting me too much, but it's been a bit of a revelation to think this might be the reason and I'm not just a massive weirdo as I always thought!

I wfh but I chose when and there's no set amount I have to do.
I can have all day to myself and ignore the other jobs. In fact bar minimum housework this week I have had every day to myself 9 until 3pm even met friends for lunch 2x but I felt exhausted mentally from it despite it being low key

I could have written this! You aren’t alone in how you’re feeling. Have you ever been tested for autism? My daughter is on the spectrum and you sound like a lot of what you’re experiencing is similar, I swear I think I am too xx

No I have never thought about adhd or autism. I wouldn't know where to start.
I do feel like a weirdo especially when socialising , where tbh except for 3 people I've cut everyone else out. Because it was too much.

Get your thyroid levels checked. Sounds like hyperthyroidism to me.

ADHD made worse by peri I would say.
I have two adult kids both diagnosed with ADHD and Asd/adhd.
My brain and sensory issues work just as you describe and it got much more obvious once I hit peri. I have accepted I have ADHD but not bothered with formal diagnosis, instead I use the same techniques and strategies for myself as I have used for years for my kids.

Jesus Christ. Have you read the OP?

I have adhd abd autism as do many people in my family.
Diagnosis as an adult is impossible in some areas but if you research adhd it might help you feel like you're not on your own and you can pick up tips that help others feeling the same way

You sound exactly like me. Pretty sure I have ADHD