Met my friend this morning for a yoga class, then we went into town for a coffee and we stopped off at the chemists and both bought some items and at the till I also bought some painkillers to which the pharmacist explained about the use and risks as usual. Then my friend was served and she bought the same painkillers I bought but this time the pharmacist who served both of us asked her, only her not me if she could be pregnant my friend said no, got the same spiel about safety then she paid and we left.
We are both the same age 48 years old and I know it was likely nothing but I just keep thinking that the chemist asking my friend and not me means that while my friend still manages to look all lush and fecund, I'm just so obviously past that stage nobody would dream to ask if I could be pregnant.
My friend does look great, she's always had really lovely skin and good genes, her family all look younger too. Its just that over the past 5 years or so I feel I've really aged a lot and I know I look 50sih while she still looks 30ish. I do just try to accept that aging is natural and that we can't help out genes but its just sometimes I get a real wobble about it and just feel like shit and start looking at the prices of Botox and filler which I know I'd probably hate if I did do it.