So I've decided for various reasons over the years that many of the school parents don't want any interactions with me. I walk in and out without 'hellos' and smiles, even though it's really against my nature.
I thinks it's to the detriment of my (nervous) child that I haven't managed to be one of the parents walking to school with others, chatting and being part of the groups in the school playground. I have tried! I was blanked, I felt some of them were nothing short of rude, I overheard conversations I never want to be part of (talking behind people's back)...
We walk everyday and there's nobody from dc's year walking our way, which doesn't help. There's a couple of other parents who live near with children of different ages and I've seen them talk to each other. I did greet (may be timidly) but noticed if I don't they don't...
So we are pretty isolated. And I'm feeling guilty as I don't think I'm helping dc with his socialising/ with his sense of belonging to the local community.
Do I just become ruthless and speak to people (who seem fairly nice) even though I feel not particularly 'liked' by them/ people clearly not bothered about getting to know us?