I hate everything ....

[clarkkentsglasses]

I just hate everything! Socialising, being "normal" ... blah fucking blah

I'm fine at work but as soon as I put the phone down (teams) I'm thinking I hate the fucker

I yawn at shit... I literally cannot believe people get excited about going out

I used to be this social butterfly about 20 years ago, I was so into going out

Now ... nope. Not one part of me wants to go out. I do the school run and thankfully don't have to chat, unless I absolutely have to.

I'm single, always have been. Had my DS by sperm doner. Totally happy.

I'm on HRT. It's marginally helped

Am I just an awful person?

My family think I'm messed up

Do you and your son go out?

I have friends .... I have about 3 close friends but even that takes it out of me, we plan days out and I I'm drained by the end of it

You sound normal to me.

Yes ... that's my best time ever. We holiday together. Have days out, museums, eat out. But good god if anyone else is thrown in the mix I struggle

I do have DS friends join us (10) but actively avoid the parent coming along

Either autistic spectrum or depressed. That's my diagnosis!

No - you're not an awful person at all. We're all different. If you are happy on your own and you're not having a negative impact on your DS, then live your life how you want to.

Now I'm happier ... I thought I was going mad

You're not mad. You've come into your own. Embrace it.

This is the only thing that worries me

Will my son be affected?

I'm not autistic

A happy, content mother is genuinely one of the most important influences on a child's life. Your son will be fine.

I hate everything

Totally happy

Hmmm

Well they do say our children grow up in spite of their parents, not because of them!

From what you say, that you are encouraging HIS friendships and do lots with him as long as no other adults are on the scene, i expect he will be in his element!

That'll be normal to him - i don't think many kids notice or are concerned as to whether their mum has any pals of her own or not.

I suspect the tricky time for you is going to be teens when he starts meeting partners and wanting those romantic relationships - how are you going to ferl about having his 15 yr old pals round or when he is young adult and is in a serious relationship.

I wonder, as you were sociable before, what has changed? Could it be the after effects of the lockdown and a bit of social anxiety maybe?

I wouldn't be worried about your DS just now but spend a bit of time thinking whether you really are happy with no rl friends. I don't see a problem in just enjoying your own company though - as long as you're not sharing your angry views on people with your DS.

I do believe that DC need to know that most people in this World are pretty decent and knowing how to get on with folks and make connections can really help us get on in life.

But your DS can get all this at school and any clubs he goes to. If he's wired to be sociable, you won't hold him back at all unless you keep him under lock and key!

Take care

Id say if you were previously sociable before and enjoyed going out then maybe you might have issues (depression, meno, etc).

Its not a problem if thats just your personality though...the world needs miserable, antisocial feckers like us to balance out all the happy, social butterflies!

I love this poster!