Missing my mum

[Needmymum]

My mum passed away 11 years ago, I was only in my 20s.

Life is busy, I have a beautiful family now and am very lucky in many ways.

But it's just hit me today how much I miss her and just how much it sucks to not have her in my corner. Friends and even partners can come and go, no-one can replace a mother.

I am tired of doing life on my own and my poor DC missing out on the most kind, warm and loving person they could have met.

I'm not sure why it's hit me today specifically but it feels very lonely, handhold to anyone else in this crappy situation.

Someone close to me has suffered great losses in her life. Recently she said to me that “It doesn’t get better: you get better “. She explained exactly this, as the PP has said. You learn to manage and you learn to cope. My experience of painful loss is that I catch and stop myself when I’m brooding about the loss and being miserable . I make a great effort to turn my sadness into active feelings of love, thankfulness and gratitude for them.

Also I’ve noticed that I’m particularly vulnerable when I’m tired or coming down with a virus.

Its just 2 years for me and its so bloody hard - I miss her so much