I have a good life it is not bad. I’ve had bad things happen in the past but I have moved past them with therapy and support and they are not a current issue although they may influence my mood.
I have a good job. A lovely husband, nice happy healthy children. I am pretty fit and healthy. I have the typical money worries most people have but no debt and I’m not going without anything. I am confident and outgoing socially.
I do feel something is missing though but I am not sure what. I often feel bored and distracted at work but then I just scroll social media and it doesn’t make me feel better. I use social media from time to time to post but I do not get much interaction from people on there. I have a couple of friends and a sibling and I try to keep in touch with them but we all have busy lives.
Every day is the same, same little things and jobs to do. I want to go on holiday, explore new things but I’m trapped in the daily grind like everyone else. My job can be frustrating. I had such a good holiday this year it was amazing then felt quite flat coming home from it!
I have been overly focused on what I eat and how much I exercise lately. I suspect it is through boredom now more than a deeper problem because if I am socialising I focus on those things far less. I don’t enjoy watching TV very much. I do like reading but I don’t do it very often. This is why I have thrown myself into exercise as it feels like I am being productive. Or I will go shopping out of boredom. I’ve tried to stop spending money on clothes from the high street so now I spend my lunch break at work in charity shops looking for bargains for something to do and it’s new and fun.
Is this the mid life crisis stage? Where you crave change fun and excitement and projects? Today I wished I could just work in a charity shop I think I would find it fulfilling and productive! I am not going to run off with a toy boy kind of mid life crisis.
Did anyone in a rut get out of their rut any suggestions?