On Friday I realised that the SSRIs I had been taking for the past almost two weeks were in fact an antacid type med for ulcers. The pharmacy had dispensed three boxes of this antacid instead of my ssri, labelled it with my prescription label and I had collected it and started taking it. Ironically I am already on a similar type of medicine, so my stomach has been double dosed for a couple of weeks!
I would have noticed sooner except unfortunately the first box I pulled out of the bag was a generic white cardboard one, the kind they usually use when they’re using blister packs from an incomplete box I imagine. So it was a white cardboard box with my label on and the blister packs inside. I didn’t even think to check the blister packs (the medication names are similar. Not identical and not really within reasonable doubt but start with the same letter and same sort of length of word, both end with an e so if you were glancing at the foil packaging and saw P———e that would probably be enough for your brain. Clearly it was for mine and tbh although I usually do a quick double check of the dispensing label I don’t tend to forensically check my prescriptions because….well because maybe naively I trust that there are safeguards in place to ensure I’m getting the right things. Much like I wouldn’t google which meds the gp had prescribed for an ear infection, I trust the professionals to carry out these processes)
I use one of those daily med organiser things because I never remember if I’ve taken them, so Friday night I went to sort out my tablets for the following week. It was then that I realise the error because I pulled out the next box from the pharmacy bag and this was branded, very clearly the wrong stuff.
Now…..I’ve been going through hell the last week and a half. Brain zaps, tinnitus, stomach upset. Mental darkness and awful thoughts like you wouldn’t believe. I even told my mum it was like an extreme version of titrating off SSRIs but it couldn’t be that because I wasn’t titrating. I was becoming really frightened there was something very very wrong, especially the brain ‘zaps’ (for those who don’t know, when you withdraw from SSRIs, even if it’s done incredibly slowly and carefully, you usually get these jolts across your brain and end of fingers, eyeballs etc that literally feel like zaps of electricity. But across the brain is worst it’s like an electrode stuck in the middle of your brain every time you move your head). I thought I was taking the right things and doing the right things so why was I getting these awful symptoms and why was my mind increasingly becoming so dark and back to a mental state that I’ve fought very hard not to be in (and haven’t been in since I’ve had children, that was really frightening, that I was getting that ill and now I had children to look after and protect).
Anyway. Went in today (sat morning) to address this with pharmacist. She replaced my meds immediately and apologised. Told me that she would inform my gp first thing Monday and that there would be a full investigation to find out what happened. She offered to give me details if I wanted to lodge a complaint. She was calm but serious. My mum (who I love dearly but is a very different person to me) would probably not have been impressed by the lack of grovelling or abject horror but I felt that she was probably paddling frantically underwater (I would have been)
However, she did say when I asked how it could have happened that it would have been ‘human error’. I asked if it was the case that two people had to check everything before it went out as that was what I thought had to happen in order to prevent these types of human errors. She said she could only see one tick and initial but she didn’t seem that shocked or upset that this was the case?
I left it there as I was desperate to get home and get on with replenishing my serotonin. I’m not convinced complaining will be entirely useful but I would like to know the outcome of the investigation and how they are going to stop this happening again. I was going to email the pharmacy to this effect.
Is this the right thing to do? Would a complaint actually be more beneficial or just increase the pressure on a small community pharmacy and deplete their resources further? I’m mainly asking people in this sector who might know really. I’d be reassured by a report from them but I guess a complaint would actually formalise what they have to do. But then what’s the use of formalising procedures to improve if a complaint ends up closing them down? I really don’t know how it works.
Sorry this has been really long winded. I’m well aware that this could have been infinitely worse, I could have been prescribed something that killed me. I was very lucky not to have more serious effects (mentally and physically) from a complete and sudden stop from a very high dose of ssri and then go cold turkey for two weeks without understanding that was happening to me. I do not want to downplay this and am not holding back from complaining because I don’t want to hurt any feelings. I just don’t know what would be the most productive course of action to take.
Thank you to anyone who can help on this!