Am I horrible

[Aaaame]

I’m so stressed out I have 2 young kids and I do everything mainly by myself. I haven’t had a full night sleep or even a block of 3 hours since 6 months ago I’m so drained and I’m not eating because I’m so busy so I’m losing weight but I don’t want to

i just felt annoyed with my baby. I feel physically sick and guilty saying that she’s a little baby and she cried in her cot and I just felt annoyed and tired

I’ve cuddled her give her some water (she’s 6mo and has regular sips so is old enough) and cuddled her back to sleep and I just feel bad

I thought things like I want a minute to myself

and I don’t I adore my kids they’re my life I am just so tired I just want some sleep not time apart

Where’s the dad?

Of course your not, your tired, irritable. Totally normal. It will pass though. I could never sleep when DD slept, I’d be awake cleaning! Of course you need to have time to yourself. Don’t feel guilty for thinking things!
If you have help from parents or friends then seize it! You are a good mum, doing her best.

Dad works long and in turn our baby only settles for me. He can help with the toddler but he’s easier regarding bed time etc as he’s in such a routine and sleeps through x

J just felt awful I know people who struggle to get pregnant try for years and would wish for these moments of exhaustion and being so busy you can’t switch off etc

I constantly see quotes about how fast things go and how to cherish every moment and I feel guilt as I don’t think I could do this again despite my heart wanting 3 overall kids , so my youngest will
most likely be my last and I’ve spent most of it so sad and anxious and it’s went so fast

Sending hugs 🫂. The baby and toddler years can be so difficult with lack of sleep. Can the dad/your mum/a friend give you a night off? This is where you need a village.

It’s been hard as my youngest is still very clingy as she’s so young and just wants mummy , my eldest is a toddler so he’s formed relationships with grandparents and auntie etc but I dot w ant to just send him out I feel so guilty

and whenever we speak about having the kids our my partner wants to go and do something and I just want to chill and have some sleep , he gets so defensive and thinks it’s me not wanting to do anything with him but it’s me just being drained :( so I don’t bother asking to try and have them stay out with thrn either because I’d have to force myself to go out when I’d just want to relax