Just can't cope with life and I want to

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I have always struggled to cope with life. I did have a fairly chaotic childhood and I assume that plays a role and over the last few years I was diagnosed with CFS and then Fibromyalgia. I work part-time and I just feel overwhelmed all the time. I am either struggling physically with exhaustion or pain or mentally with anxiety/depression. I am on anti-depressants which stop me from lying on the floor crying all day but I still feel I am dragging myself through life and waiting for it to get to the end so it can all stop. I sometimes wish I did not exist. And I hate that I am so bloody useless! I don't want to be the person who does not manage. It's annoying. To others. To me.

Has anyone managed to turn something like this around?

Sorry you are feeling so awful. I can absolutely relate to this! Have you had any counselling? 💐

I have had some in the past yes. It was ok. I just didn't feel I got to the bottom of things. Feels like something in me is just broken and I can't work out how to fix it. I get so frustrated with myself.

What things do you do that bring you joy?

Oh that is a lovely question! I enjoy quiet days at home, reading, gentle walks that kind of thing. Cups of tea. Basically slow and simple things. It can be hard to find space for those with work/kids. I tend to recover on my days off.