I need some advice as I feel absolutely desperate. I left my job a few months ago as it was extremely stressful, long often unpaid hours and was at the point of collapse. I went to a new job that was 2k less, a bit less holiday etc as I felt it may be slightly more in line with my life but I still feel the same. This time though the workload is immense, I don't feel like I am clicking with my team as I should be and I've been told I'm not performing as I should, am six weeks in. I've basically been put on a sort of performance plan. I can't often pick my kids up and am rooting around for school pick ups and am often late.
If it wasn't for my children I don't think I could carry on because I can't imagine living every day feeling like this anymore.
Two of my children are neurodiverse and require much more attention and their care needs are higher than my others. I didn't work for ten years due to being a single parent with absolutely no support from their father. I've worked really hard over the last four years to get from a NMW job to mid 30k but I just don't feel I can go on anymore. I also have a degenerative disability so I have kind of felt that I've needed to prove myself to people that I am capable.
We do get some UC due to disability for myself and my eldest but am really worried as I don't want to be entirely dependent on benefits to live.
Any advice would be welcome please x