Trying to stay positive after leaving DV relationship back at my mums with 2 kids

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Trying to stay positive but my emotions feel so bloody confused. Come for a rant really.
So annoying that I am still pining over my lost "relationship" it's not really that I even would contemplate wanting him back of course. It is more that my chance of a happy family was completely ruined by a horrible bully. I'm so angry at him for taking that away from my kids and me and he just gets to swan around living his life not a care in the world that he has kids he doesn't/cannot see. I love raising my kids and I do love that we're away from him and I'm trying to stay positive but the anger I have inside of me towards him for all he did to us and is now living his best life like he's a saint!!!!! Urgh! Im so annoyed...

Well done for getting away!

Have you thought about some counselling op? It must be so frustrating to see him having a great old time while you have made sacrifices to leave.

I had massive feelings of resentment towards someone who caused me great pain and they got to live their life the way they had been while I was trying to hard to hold to my life. I could feel the rage bubbling inside me. I wished horrible things on him.

I had counselling over the whole situation but I particularly feel I made progress with be able to deal with those feelings. I kinda reframed it as he has taken enough from me he is not getting any more of my feelings.