I’m really looking for some advice. I’m 48, married with two DCs (pre and early teens).
I work full time in a very highly stressful board level role in the NHS.
I am in the midst of menopause on HRT. I have a long commute, do on calls, and have very little
time outside of work. I am chaotic and disorganised.
I’ve found the last couple of years tricky, however over the last fews months I feel like my state of mind has really deteriorated.
My DH works less hours (but is FT) and does all the school runs etc. He does all the ironing, a degree of the cleaning (but not to the standard I would want).
Over the last few years he has connected well with friends and arranges long weekends abroad. He coaches our sons rugby team and also loves watching football etc.
I can honestly say, have nothing like that. I am tired, stressed and feel like my mind is totally frazzled. I am tearful lots of the time.
I am overweight, and have high blood pressure too.
This weekend I’ve spent time with some friends I see infrequently. They are in very different financial positions, and they are not tied down to long hours or stressful jobs.
I’ve come away feeling so helpless and trapped. The majority of our money is going on our mortgage and clearing old debts acquired to undertake house repairs. Moving and downsizing is not an option as DC starts GCSEs and needs stability.
I don’t know if anyone has any advice. I feel so lost, so trapped and constantly so tearful.