We live in a village. Have my 5yo and she’s just started school. She’s been at nursery in the village up until now. We, and the nursery, and doctors suspect she’s maybe neurodiverse and she is really quiet and shy around her peers and doesn’t show any real interest in playing with them. She plays really well with her 3YO sister. Any attempts i’ve made to try and organise play dates in the past have been brushed off politely along the lines of yes we should but never giving a date. I’m not really sure if this is because i’m seen as boring or if it’s that maybe the other kids wouldn’t get much out of it. It makes me beyond sad to think my unlike-ability could be impacting my girls now. I just feel so so alone here. For various reasons - doing a heavily male oriented degree and work, and moving around I don’t have many (any) good friends. All the other Mums seem so close. There were loads of the Mums from her class just hanging out in the park with wine and snacks. I know them all to small talk to from the nursery history etc. I felt so awkward on the periphery and got back and just cried and cried - not because I was left out of not invited but just because I never seem to be able to build what they have. The village is reasonably isolated and so any hobbies/ groups etc I’ve tried are with the same pool of people as it would be an hour round trip to parts of the nearest city. Sometimes I want to move but feel like I’m the problem so the problem would move with me. I feel so lost and don’t know how to change.