Constant nostalgia/sad feelings in early 30s

[LilacWriter]

I come from a small family where my parents divorced as a kid and I saw my grandparents every day. My grandad died 10 years ago and my gran is very ill and doesn't know me.

I lived abroad for years and never seemed to get these feelings of deep nostalgia for my childhood. I don't know if it's because I now live near where my grandparents grew up but lately I miss them all the time and had a serious cry about it the other day.

I also seem to have been ghosted by a friend of 20 years. He got divorced from his wife last year and has gone AWOL. Today I nearly teared up washing dishes thinking about all the nice trips we shared with mutual friends over the years and how that's over.

Finally the family pet died aged 20 two months ago and that seems to have been the nail in the coffin! I even find myself lamenting on all the older relatives from my childhood who are gone.

This isn't normal is it?

I think so OP, I have just turned 30 and I've weirdly been the same.
I've put it down to realising that we're not those young spring chickens anymore, or young teens / 20 something year olds. But they seem so recent, but then 40 doesn't seem far away.

It's an awkward age of 'you're still so young'
But 'old enough to have your shit together'.

Life is passing by quicker than ever now I'm 30, it's scary.

It is scary @FromAClosetInNorway

I feel like it was just yesterday I was moving to the country where I spent most of my 20s carefree. Now I'm starting to worry about ageing parents and don't feel the same freedom.

I agree time is passing quickly. I think the issue is I've had fleeting moments of nostalgic but lately I've been ruminating.

I used to ask my parents about their grandparents and asked my grandparents about their parents! They always seemed wistful and sad and I was always struck by how much they still missed them. Well now I feel that way.